Hello 2016!

This year is one of the best year of my life. Okay. I'm going to make this post quick ☺This year I learned so much about life. I learned that challenges makes every person grow. It's not about the number of months or years that passes by. It's all about the experiences. I'm thankful for a year full of love and happiness with my family and friends. I'm thankful for all the blessings from our Lord. I, sometimes hate myself and my life but at the end of the day I will think of all the good people around me and for having a life that i will describe as one of a kind. I learned that life has so much to discover. I learned that I should embrace myself for being blessed and for having this kind of life that some people doesn't have. Lastly, the best thing that I learned this year is being capable of accepting and understanding the flaws of every people around me. I don't want to make any promises. I just want to continue to love all the people that deserve to be loved. ♥

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! 
LET'S MAKE THIS YEAR FILLED WITH LOVE AND ACCEPTANCE!
WELCOME 2016!!!

♥,

J

Its time

Maybe it's time to finally end this chapter. The chapter in which I felt so much happiness. The chapter that I thought is never gonna have an ending. As what people says "Every chapter has its own ending".
It really does. You're the author of your own book. It's your choice to start or end every chapters in life. But i guess this chapter has to end. One of the worse feeling is having both two chapters open, you're waiting for the first chapter to end while still browsing the another chapter. But what's the reason behind this first chapter that I can't let go?

Unlike the other chapters that passed in my life, this one is very different among the rest. This chapter is very short but it feels infinite. It feels like a lifetime chapter that I can be with for the rest of my life life. It's so hard to end it. Every book has a chapter that gives highlight to it. Well i guess this is one of the highlights of my life. Well yeah, i have to admit it. Hahaha! It's just a few pages of my book but it's definitely one of the best and worst. Best because of complete happiness and love. Worst because of too much pain and loneliness.

It's hard to end this. Seriously. I'm always like, I.C.A.N.T.D.O.T.H.I.S but i have to carry myself and just treasure all the memories in this chapter.

♥,

J

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Happy Christmas sweeties!

I got here facts about Christmas!! 

1. Norwegian scientists have hypothesized that Rudolph’s red nose is probably the result of a parasitic infection of his respiratory system.

2. The Germans made the first artificial Christmas trees out of dyed goose feathers.

3. Christmas trees usually grow for about 15 years before they are sold.

4. The popular Christmas song “Jingle Bells” was actually written for Thanksgiving. The song was composed in 1857 by James Pierpont, and was originally called “One Horse Open Sleigh”.

5. Mariah Carey’s “All I Want for Christmas Is You” is considered to be the most popular Christmas song now. 

6. The highest-grossing Christmas movie of all time is How the Grinch Stole Christmas. The Jim Carrey version

7. Christmas is a contraction of “Christ’s Mass,” which is derived from the Old English Cristes mæsse (first recorded in 1038). The letter “X” in Greek is the first letter of Christ, and “Xmas” has been used as an abbreviation for Christmas since the mid 1500s.

8. The Christmas wreath is symbolic of Jesus. The red berries symbolize his blood and the holly represents the crown of thorns.

9. 25th December was not celebrated as the birthday of Jesus Christ until the year AD 440.

10. The “true love” mentioned in the song “Twelve Days of Christmas” does not refer to a romantic couple, but the Catholic Church’s code for God. The person who receives the gifts represents someone who has accepted that code. For example, the “partridge in a pear tree” represents Christ. The “two turtledoves” represent the Old and New Testaments.

Happy Christmas to everyone! May y'all spend your time with your family and loved ones! Let us remember that this is the day of our Savior, Jesus Christ! ☺

♥,

J

Sources:

http://facts.randomhistory.com/christmas-facts.html

http://www.softschools.com/facts/holidays/christmas_facts/144/

http://www.etonline.com/news/155454_31_facts_you_didn_t_know_about_christmas/

http://resources.woodlands-junior.kent.sch.uk/customs/xmas/facts.html

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Film Analysis of Tim Burton's Beetlejuice

Description of style
Simple and straightforward is the best description of style. At first it is kind of tricky but as the movie goes you will find it easy to understand and you will already know what will be the ending. The problem is there’s no thrill in watching this movie but you’ll love it because it is a comedy fantasy film so there’ll be no dull moments while watching this. Another style is that this movie is light, comical and humorous. Light in a way that you will not feel the heavy drama even if the movie is about that couple who passed away in a car accident. Comical and humorous because it cause laughter especially by unexpected or unusual. There are scenes that will turn into laughter because Adam and Barbara will change their physical appearances into a monster in a funny way.

Subject matter
Beetlejuice is a horror comedy fantasy film. The story goes when a couple died in a car accident and found a 'Handbook for the recently deceased'. As we all know, Tim Burton's specialty is horror and fantasy kind of movies. This movie dealt with the couple on how are they going to protect their house since they are recently deceased. At first, the couple are not aware that they passed away. Soon after they discovered, things changed. The newly moved family in their house don't believe that the couple Adam and Barbara are just playing with them. The mission of the two is to scare them but they keep on failing and seems to be like a funny thing. Weird things happened when beetlejuice appeared. Beetlejuice, a freelance "bio-exorcist" ghost that appear when you said his name three times. When the family knew what is happening in the house they perform a spiritual action using the book to reincarnate the couple and to let them die again. Later on, the couple agreed to share their house to the newly moved family.

Cinematography
Since this movie was released on 1988, capturing the action of the actors, type of camera angle and lighting are in a process of enhancing. Objective camera was used in this movie. The only part when subjective camera was used is when the Beetlejuice narrate the story of his life. The arrangement of people is quite good. No one is blocking the camera and the other actor. Some arrangements of the objects are not parallel to each other and some of them doesn't fit on the frame. Talking about the type of camera angle, some scenes are inappropriate on the actions of the actors. There are scenes that the camera didn't capture the expressions of the actors. When it comes to lighting there are scenes that the light wasn't established. If you will give time to take a look at every scene you will find out that some scenes doesn’t have the proper lighting. Most of the time it’s too dark.

I just want to become a superhero

I always wanted to become an international model when i was a kid. I remember during exam days my teacher will ask our class especially the girls if who's interested to have a fashion show in our classroom, i always volunteer to be one of the models. I'm shy. SUPER! But when it comes to that kind of stuff i don't know why i'm such a bibbo kid hahahaha. ☺

Time flies so fast when i realized that i want to be a flight attendant. Maybe because people always told me to be an FA that's why my mind was molded to choose this profession. But later on i decided to be a chef because i love experimenting foods. Well actually not love, i just like it or i'm just kinda interested to this craft. Unfortunately cooking doesn't like me. I tried to cook mac and cheese once then i let my family taste it. They really find it bad. I used ready to cook sauce for that mac and cheese but it doesn't taste good.. FOR THEM. Cause for me, it taste just like mac and cheese. Hahahaha!!

During the middle of summer vacation getting ready for my first year in college i already completed my mind. I already got a chance to think of what i wanted to be in the future and that's film director. I love writing stories. I love creating scenes in every people or situation i am encountering. I love making up stories every night before i go to sleep. I love making "what ifs" everytime i am talking to someone. I love dreaming of a perfect movie with me as an actor, director, and script writer. Wow that's hard hahaha. I'm an auteur now. Well that's my basis for choosing this field.

The end where I begin

I swear i saw you but you didn't saw me. As you drive your car passing by me my heart then suddenly stop. Three words in my mind that i let out, "OH MY GOD" As i saw you passing by i remember all the memories. I remember the first day i met you then we talked and laughed. The tension in your body that you can't control. The way you speak stutters. The way you move your eyes gives a feeling of nervousness. You can't barely move. You can't even drive your car because you were too afraid to make a wrong move. But as i remember those moments i can still remember the last day i hold you, the last time i kissed you goodbye. The day when you finally asked for your freedom that i can't give.

As the rain is pouring it gives a heartbreaking feeling because it reminds me of the saddest part of our love story. That's when you finally realized that you're no longer in love with me. You made excuses. Damn too many excuses. I actually don't know what to believe in those excuses. I keep on asking myself "Why does it have to end?" It took how many months for me to figure out the answer. Then i told myself "Everything has its own ending. You don't have to ask why. You just have to accept the fact that ending do exist."

Vivid

All of us have been in a chaotic situation in our lives. Well, maybe, some are just on their way to the real so-called LIFE. Some already came to the point of giving up at the early age. But life must go on. Seriously. For now it may seem to be in darker world full of hatred, anxiety, envy, suffering, pain. But when you're over it you will be able to say to yourself that "Oh god. I love my life!"

Have you ever feel like you're the only person in the world? I mean everyone seems to be a stranger and enemy for you. It's like you carry all the problems of all the people near you. It's like you feel so tiny and everyone's just stepping and laughing at you. When you try to speak it feels like there's a huge voice saying words like USELESS, STUPID, ASSHOLE, LOSER, WEAK then will laugh at you until you can no longer say what you wanna say. When somebody ask you on something and you can't even open you're mouth because you were too afraid to be rejected and you'll just wish to be swallowed by the ground. At this point in your life you were too afraid. Afraid in choosing the right words and actions. The level of your anxiety is really uncontrollable. It feels like all of your words and actions are wrong. You can't no longer recognize what's right from wrong. You just stuck yourself on a thought that everything about you is completely undefined.

Blank page

I'm staring at my blog. 

I just can't think of anything that i can put in here. Well to tell you honestly i got tons of ideas everytime i'm away from my keyboard. I always picture my blog to look like this, to post about this and that, to share my deepest thoughts. But still, I'm staring at my blog. 

You know that feeling when you think of an idea and you really believe that it is great to share it in your blog but you just can't. I really don't know why. It's all in my head. It keeps bothering my head. My imagination is absolutely giving me a feeling of assuming that i can post something on my blog that i'm really going to be proud of. But still, I'm staring at my blog.

Sometimes having too much ideas creates a messy concept. Too much ideas give you headaches because you don't know how to start. And when you finally started, you just don't know how to end it. Too much ideas give you a hard time to make every single detail comes out perfectly. 

How do i overcome this writer's block?

Choice or Destiny

In life, choices are everywhere.

I remember when my professor once asked us if life is a matter of choice or destiny? In my mind, i instantly answered "Life is a matter of choice".

Some people says that life is a matter of choice. Others believe that life is not a matter of choice but a matter of destiny. I truly believe that if you want something to prove in your life you better make a move and start choosing the right choices. Life is full of choices.
Choices that will test our personality.
Choices that will serve as a guide.
Choices that will lead us to a right or wrong path.
Choices that will teach us good and bad things.
Choices that will make life complicated.

Sudden Changes

She's happy.
She's loved.
She's worthy.
She's contented.

Then it crashed.

She never thought that being happy will give so much loneliness.
She never thought that being loved will be the reason for unloving herself.
She never thought that being worthy will prove to her that she's worthless.
She never thought that being contented will make her depressed.

And now she never felt anything again.

♥,

J

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"Too hard to let go"

Have you ever tried waking up in the morning without touching your phone? Without reading the messages? Without telling the world that you just woke up and says "GOOD MORNING WORLD! JUST WOKE UP ☺"? (Well to tell you honestly, i do this once in a while. HAHAHA) Without taking selfies and post it on social media with a caption "I woke up like this"? Without posting a photo of your breakfast? Without taking a photo of the places where you've been? (In fact, these places are just shopping malls, boutiques, restaurants and parks that we've been too) Without posting a photo of your ootd? Without telling your followers where exactly are you? Without reading the status and tweets of your friends and followers? Without liking and sharing videos online that you can relate to? Without telling the whole wide world all the things that you're doing? 

THIS IS NOT AN ONLINE JOURNAL/DIARY.

HEY BEAUTIFUL!

Installation, Victoria Lucas and Richard William Wheater

It's all about you. 

It's all about your eyes, cheeks, nose, lips.

It's all about your hair.

It's all about your arms, legs, boobs, butt. 

You hate them? Then you really are a stupid human being.

It's not about being famous, beautiful and sexy,

it's being true to yourself.

You know what's real? 

Look at the mirror for more than a minute...

You are beautiful.

You don't need pretty face nor an hour-glass body shape to be loved.

You are loved.

But first let yourself to be loved by you. 

It's all up to you.

Because if you do love yourself everything will follow. 

Do not hesitate to call yourself beautiful. You really are.

Beauty is the reality of loving who you really are.

So hey!

Stop saying "I hate my nose!" "I look so fat" 

"I want those lips" "How do i get white skin?" 

Start living in a way that loving yourself can make you feel beautiful.




♥,
J

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