I've been known in our class for being one of the competitive student. Well sometimes I get annoyed when they keep on teasing me for being competitive because I'm not really aiming to compete with them. I'm just doing my job to pass a certain subject. They always see me being prepared and organized everytime the class is about to start. Actually, I AM NOT. I am just a regular student coming in class without any preparations. I am just a normal student who can't understand the lessons. I am just a typical student who's failing in quizzes and exams. Just like you. Just like every student.
To tell you honestly, I want to be on top. I want my name to be posted as one of the Dean's Lister. But I know I can't. I am not as intelligent as our batch's top one, two, three. I just passed exams, quizzes, activities and such because I am completely and absolutely studying and memorizing the lectures on my notebook and hand outs. If I will not study, I will fail. That's why I admire those students for passing their subjects without giving full effort to study their lessons. You know, "matalino talaga".
Now I realized, it's not about being the number one. It's not about being the highest in exams. It's not about having grades that is 90 and above. It's not just about the grades. You know you're number one when you achieve something that you didn't expect. You've always been number one. You do not have to compete with others. You do not have to let everyone know that you belong to a star section or Dean's Lister. You don't need anyone for any validation that you're on the top. You're already number one. Believe in yourself. You are the best.
♥,
J
(photo not mine)
