I swear i saw you but you didn't saw me. As you drive your car passing by me my heart then suddenly stop. Three words in my mind that i let out, "OH MY GOD" As i saw you passing by i remember all the memories. I remember the first day i met you then we talked and laughed. The tension in your body that you can't control. The way you speak stutters. The way you move your eyes gives a feeling of nervousness. You can't barely move. You can't even drive your car because you were too afraid to make a wrong move. But as i remember those moments i can still remember the last day i hold you, the last time i kissed you goodbye. The day when you finally asked for your freedom that i can't give.
As the rain is pouring it gives a heartbreaking feeling because it reminds me of the saddest part of our love story. That's when you finally realized that you're no longer in love with me. You made excuses. Damn too many excuses. I actually don't know what to believe in those excuses. I keep on asking myself "Why does it have to end?" It took how many months for me to figure out the answer. Then i told myself "Everything has its own ending. You don't have to ask why. You just have to accept the fact that ending do exist."
It just have to stop not knowing why. Time will just come that everything will be shattered into pieces. It's weird but it's normal. Everything will be gone as time passed by. You can no longer fight for it. Although some excuses aren't valid nor real, it will happen still. You have to be ready anytime. You have to open your mind in everything that you have. Letting go is the best choice.
"Maybe our love story is meant to be paused for a while. Or maybe meant to be stopped not meant to be played again. Because if I keep on waiting for it to rewind, nothing's gonna happen. If I wait for it to start again I'll never find the beginning. I have to end it. He already ended it."
♥,
J
(photo not mine)
